Friday, September 5

It's a .....

BOY! We're having a little baby boy! We have officially become members of the boy club. I know everyone was thinking that we were having a girl because of the boy trend we've had over the past couple of years, but it looks like we're adding another boy to the nursery at Rich Fork. I could not be any more excited. Being in that ultrasound room was so surreal. I just kept looking at Matt in amazement. Our little boy was was sweet on the video the doctor made for us we could see him moving around, opening his mouth, sucking on his thumb and waving at us. I couldn't believe that we were actually meeting our child. I've had an overwelming feeling of gratefulness ever since we left the doctor yesterday morning. This is the child that God has put in our care, that He specifically made for Matt and I to love on this earth.

Besides extreme gratefulness, other thoughts have popped in my head since yesterday. First, how could anyone not believe in God if they've ever experience an ultrasound? Which goes along with, how can people say that a baby is not a human being at that point? It makes no sense, we can see it with our eyes. My second thought, will I be a good mom to our little boy? Lately I've felt bombarded with so many different decisions to made before he's even born, such as, what pediatrics to use, and spacing out shots. Am I qualified to makes these decisions? Whew, sometimes the feeling of inadequacy is too much.

It's a good thing that God didn't ask us to do this whole parent thing on our own. Besides having Him, which is most important, he has given me an awesome family and friends who are here to walk with me every step of the way. Another thing to be grateful for.

I'll try in the next week to post some pictures and videos of our day at the doctor.